This is a kind of old subject -- you wouldn't realise what you've lost
until you lost it. Maybe you are just disguised by yourself, nobody
attempts to hide something, just you were blinded by your own
feelings so you can't see other stuff. Just want to retain a feeling
happened at one moment, it costs you the rest of your life, as well as
others. Anyway how can we ordinary people understand that. It's at its
own right -- how can we judge simply via "right" or "wrong"?